[	Current Location	|	Library.	]
[	Current Mood	|	amused	]
[	Current Music	|	Still need to get that iPod.	]

Ahhh.

So I don't have much time to write because MySpace is brainwashing and I spent 45 of my 60 minutes with internet access on it.

Fifteen minutes isn't much to sum up what a great day yesterday was and how mediocre today has been,

but I'll give it a try.

Yesterday was pretty coincident-filled.

The main one being Danielle.

I had been thinking about her all morning. How I treated her. How we used to have something real.

I even stood in front of the mirror practicing what I would say to her if I saw her.

So once I left the library yesterday I sat on Carroll Creek for an hour reading one of my new books, Kiss Me, Judas.

Then I got Philly's and brought it to the park and started eating my lunch under the willow tree.

And then I see her. Alone. Walking in my direction. Coincidence. Very unnerving. At first.

I tell her to sit, and we talk. Well first, she talks. Then  I explain how it's a coincidence. How I've been meaning to talk with her.

Long story short, I may eventually get a good friend back. I understand her now, 

and back when I was overly rude to her, it was because I didn't.

I live with Mea now. Hopefully we'll get the extra bedroom fixed up soon.

As for now I'm chilly, about to go outside to read some more, and then off to my first day of work.

As for the boy update, still nothing.

Well, even more  of nothing, if that's possible.

I don't get what he wants. But he won't speak with me about it until Saturday.

And by Sunday, I'll either have felt better, or I'll have left him.

We'll see how the wind's blowing that day.
<3

..because I decided to spend 25 minutes on myspace deleting friends who aren't really friends and stupid things like that.

Anyways.

I'm here. At the library. Because I don't have anywhere else to go.

And I wanted to get some writing done.

Since this is my first entry of this journal I guess it'll just be explaining what's been going on lately.

Every night's another story.

Well, for me it certainly is.

I got a full-time job. I applied to college. Just got my car back from the shop. I straightened things out with Ash. I found a nice boy.

But come on, this is ME we're talking about. Lord knows something just had to go wrong.

Or....somethings.

Steff accuses me of trying to steal her best friend, attacks me [don't get excited, it was only verbal and..text..u...al?],

and now we're not speaking and it doesn't need to be said that we hate each other's guts.

My mom is on her side with everything because they're like twins.

I'm kicked out.

I go back to the house to shower and my mom and I get in a screaming fight...for the third day in a row.

I'm sure the neighbors just go crazy after all the screaming as I walk out of the house casually dressed

with a huge smile on my face, satisfied.

Man, does that sound bad. Turns out I'm the devil with pretty blue eyes, teased hair, and a bright pink top.

So boy's cute. Boy's sweet. Boy makes girl laugh, smile, get butterflies..ew, whatever.

But boy's best friend thought it'd be fun to assume that girl's crazy.

Funny right? Well NOT TO ME.

Hostility, unconnected, vulnerable.

All my so-called aftershock from feeling excited, nervous, and happy.

Misunderstandings. He doesn't get it. But who will ever get it?

I changed the words a bit:

It's time I forget [about finding someone able to handle me and have enough in common with me], and just learn to love what I have.

But oops. Can't say the 'L' word! Boy might think girl is crazy, or says best friend.

COME ON.

I NEED SIMPLICITY FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE.
AND IF YOU'RE NOT GOING TO GIVE IT TO ME,
WHAT ARE YOU WASTING TIME FOR?!
Go live your life.


:D
More tomorrow, probably before work.
I work 3-close @ the mall.
Wish me luck!

<3